‘Go placidly amid the noise and haste…’

I have had a lovely day… It started with my live broadcast about my preparations to run Barefoot Across Spain which I loved so much… To be with people even though we are all miles apart is just such a magic thing!

It reminds me that we are all connected all of the time; we are all communicating and connecting through the ether… All that technology has done is made it easier for us to by pass any blocks in our telepathy and ethereal broadcast systems, to allow us communicate clearly with one another, so that we can then receive the messages and understand them fully…

But it is important that we remember that the air waves are always open, and that we are always communicating with one another… We are always impacting with our energy, and of course being affected by the energy of others… Therefore, it is worth considering in every single moment, the quality of our vibration… What frequency is coming from our being…?

If we are committed to being aware at all times – then we will feel everything that tremors though us… If we are  prepared to take responsibility for not projecting it outwards, or denying the feelings or distracting from then, then we are in a position to clear the energy and to transmute it…

It takes huge commitment to be prepared to stay present 24/7 – to clear the tension, the negative dips, any unkind thoughts, feelings of despair… And on the opposite spectrum the energy of too much zealousness, over drive, over excitement… For they are all vexatious to the soul….

‘Go placidly amid the noise and haste and remember what peace there may be in silence…’

Silence is the space in which we know ourselves, and it is in the space of silence that all the extreme feelings can clear. All we need do is truly feel… To know that this is what clearing is…

Feeling the feelings without a story, so that we transform our energy field allowing our light to shine brightly… Others will be affected and infected by the light which can light the way as a guide to themselves….

After my broadcast I went for a run on the grass in the centre of the track… What joy for my feet which are working so hard… Round and round we went – my feet and I – five fun, springy green grass miles before breakfast…

Anadi and I then sat in the sun in El Lago restaurant, enjoying being together and chatting, looking out over the Atlantic ocean, watching the waves crash…

I fully appreciated the simple delight of food after exercise, delicious granola and fruit in yoghurt, carrot apple and ginger juice – with cafe con leche of course – and then I polished off the rest of Anadi’s toast with butter and honey.

The delight of eating with such enjoyment, trust of my body’s wisdom and messages –  freedom…

For so many years – way back in the past now – I was trapped in the tyranny of an eating disorder… But I knew, even then, that this was an energy too… I saw my eating disorder then as my concept of evil as it stripped away my spirit’s expression and my joy… But I knew, I saw that this dark energy was for clearing – and I knew it was possible to clear it away completely. In deeply exploring this obsession of mine, I discovered deeper answers and the key to clearing all darkness as it arose; all tension and fear and so I learnt how to free myself and in the process how to teach others…

I also learned that things can take time – and that it is simply a matter of keeping on keeping on… Never stopping and never being hard on ourselves; simply committing to the process…

Freeing ourselves…

Barefoot Across Spain! Update on the preparations…

My journey will start in March 2018 on the Northern Coast of Spain in Suances. I will journey, running barefoot, down through Spain arriving in Almuñecar on the South Coast. I aim to arrive on my 59th birthday in May!
Being barefoot connects me to the earth and to myself and to the awareness of each moment as I tread my own life journey.
I have always worked deeply in the lives of others, helping them to face themselves in life and death. Therefore it feels natural for me to be raising money to aid the transition of adults and children in their journey from life to death.

Learning what we already know…

I raced back from running round and round the track to my Spanish lesson; arriving glowing and un showered… The joys of Skype that allow for us to be together with another in a way I wouldn’t be if I were in her classroom!

And then I was on fire in my lesson… ‘I don’t recognise you’ Maricarmen laughed as phrases and words were coming seemingly from nowhere… We decided not to question where they had come from…!

She said that I learn differently to other people… She says I am the opposite way round to most… In her experience people learn the verbs and vocabulary and like to get them perfect, but then find difficulty making use of them in conversation – putting them together in phrases and sentences… She says that I am different and speak phrases and sentences without always getting the verbs and vocab completely accurate – but she assures me that I am understandable and she says the correct ways will come… Are coming.

I said to her that I would enjoy being completely Spanish for a short while, to be able to hear myself and what I sounds like to a Spanish person… ‘Muy gracioso pienso’ ‘very funny I think’ – I said… “We like hearing people speaking in a funny way’ she laughed…

I have always done things back to front, so it was interesting for me to hear this, and testament to Maricarmen as a teacher that she has flowed with my way and taught me in the ‘back to front’ way that suits me… I think it is also described as counter intuitive…

We all learn differently and it is finding the way that suits us, and will help us to master any new practises we desire to learn… Of course there is now awareness that people learn differently and this has been addressed in teaching methods and training teachers… Gifted teachers recognise different learning ways and adapt how they teach to suit their students, who have come to them to learn what they already know…

All learning is in truth accessing from the absolute understanding that we know all there is to know, all is available to us, learning is simply clearing the pathways to allow the truth to emerge…

It is, therefore our responsibility ultimately to know ourselves… ‘Know thyself…’

I had enjoyed running around the track… I ran 5000 metres jogging the bends and striding down the straights… A nice way to lap the track… My feet are definitely noticing the upping of miles… They are slightly more sensitive, but I showed the bottom of them to Anadi and he said ‘You’ve just got to keep doing it, they will adjust…’

The rest of my body is flying, my body feels balanced and happy… It is eating up the miles, but I am going to flow with my feet and let them dictate and catch up… I watched a little boy running along on top of a very ouchie looking wall yesterday… I was inspired.

Whenever we feel to look, there is inspiration all around us… If our orientation is ‘I can do…’ – we will find those that already are – and our belief will be re affirmed… I am often inspired by children… By their relaxation, their movement, the capacity they have to walk on ouchie walls or do handstands cartwheels, bend and stretch… They are my re educators of how the body likes to move, be agile, strong and balanced…

They are my teachers…

If we know ourselves and embrace and love ourselves, then we will be willing to spend time understanding ourselves and unravelling any of the hurts from childhood… Perhaps someone didn’t have the time or energy to do so… We now can look after our own inner child, and learn how to support and nurture them.. We can discover how they respond and look after them, and find that we will then truly grow into the happy integrated adult who can jump and leap and cartwheel alongside the inner child….

I was delighted yesterday in my barefoot fitness class to discover that my right big toe was a bit unresponsive… Once we know something we can address it and unravel it. My toe responded very fast to the exercise and re engaged; but sometimes it takes longer… The key is to gently gently work at whatever it is we wish to master or learn…

Giving ourselves the patience and understanding, the time and energy we wanted and perhaps didn’t always receive as a child… Now we can do it for ourselves, and find that by giving ourselves permission to learn in the way that works for us, with kindness, patience and calm…

Anything is possible

Everything is unfolding…

I was wandering along just now, when a Spanish man asked me… ‘Why no shoes…’? I realised I didn’t really have much of an answer… ‘Because I like it, because my feet like it…’ Perhaps they are a lot of an answer on reflection…

Doing what we like, and our body likes… Ahh but what we like might be doing nothing much at all, or wild outrageous things, or acts of ‘wrong doing’ – and our body, our feet they might want all manner of deemed unhealthy actions and practises…!

I remember reading years and years ago that we must become a master of our body and our mind, or else they could run off in wild ways, and lead us away from the truth of us at the core of our being… I understood this and have lived a life committed to practising and learning how to really master myself… As the years have passed, I eventually found what I ‘knew’,  that my soul communicates through my mind and body… There is no separation; what my feet want and like, my soul needs for its journey here…

But I imagine, I was always going to respond in that way, on reading those words… They resonated with my energy and so I understood and addressed the suggestions they gave me…

Because the more I live this life, the more I truly understand the phrase I have often used… ‘We do not know the path another treads…’ Within my own journey, I was at times certainly pulled hither and thither by my mind and body and set off enthusiastically down routes that did not seem to be of the souls calling…

And yet of course they were… I see the soul now as our energetic makeup over lifetimes… And so challenge, sadness, ill health, pain and heart break can all be part of the soul’s way to experience and work things out… We are all born of consciousness, of love and in this human journey we are learning, experiencing, and gradually remembering our true nature.

We will all eventually return to the source from whence we came; the consciousness from which we are born… Our true self is free… But we cannot pretend to be free until we are.

Everything is unfolding… ‘The best course therefore is to remain silent…’

I tried to run barefoot twice before, but I got injured both times and I can see on reflection that ‘getting hurt’ then was always going to happen… It was part of the journey to me running freely barefoot now… In the same way I was always going to push too hard in my younger days and the heights I dreamed of were going to allude me, as the deeper lessons I learned were what my soul needed to clear the way for true clearing…

I always ‘knew’ when I was going to run well, in advance of the race… The part that sent me circling around in a disappointing cycle was the part of me that ‘wanted’ something out of my reach… wanted running to make me immortal and to know I was loved…

But I now see that I was always going to experience that, I couldn’t learn to let go and love myself without having the human experience of a repeated cycle…We are here to work out our energetic traps and truly acknowledge all we feel, all the places we are held and keep working it out as we live….

And so again we remember the words of Ramana
‘Whatever is destined not to happen will not happen, try as you may. Whatever is destined to happen will happen, do what you may to prevent it. This is certain. The best course, therefore, is to remain silent…’

I have had a lovely day today… I started it by running 10k all around the outskirts of Club la santa where I am staying… I was running in the opposite way to a few people… One of the runners and I connected  and we smiled as we passed each other…

I then decided I would go to barefoot fitness and Kemi as I discovered her name was – the runner from this morning’s run – was there too…

It was a lovely experience to meet her, connect with her and to discover that she is a minimalist shoe and vibram 5 finger barefoot being too… We did the class next to each other and then I asked if she’d like to be in my vlog…

It was a joy to speak with her and to share and to celebrate our similarities, whilst honouring and acknowledging what works for us on our own journey…

Embracing all aspects of who we are…

As I glance around my little apartment here in Club la santa, it looks like I’ve lived here for ages, and that I am a single messy female!

The entire of me is scattered about the flat…

I have always had a tendency when alone to splash myself all about; it is a habit that thankfully I manage when sharing space with another… I do this by mentally apportioning sections of the bathroom, the bedroom and living room to me; so that the splash is contained without impacting on the tidy person I am with…

Anadi is a techy being and has all his wires perfectly coiled; I love to see it… It makes such sense, and is very pleasing to the eye. But I am a splashy colour person – it suits my energy and perhaps rather unexpectedly, there is order for me within the splash…  Anadi by contrast is is a neat Zen white walls and silver surfaces person…

But we both like and admire the difference in the other; we celebrate the expression, the energy that comes out of each of us, and is then made manifest in the way we do things…

We are all different, and we all have different energetic expressions and vibrations… The most important thing is to resist thinking that our way is the right way; or making up stories about what the expression of another might mean…

Criticism can happen if there are wounds within the expression… If we are behaving in a certain way as an act of rebellion or making a statement… The irony is that we will often get criticised for this ‘adaptation’, and so the pattern persists of pushing back and rebelling…

Or maybe we are witnessing another living out our own disowned, hidden or lost self… Our expression is devoid of that aspect, because early in our life we unconsciously or consciously decided our life would work better without it… If this is the case we can find ourselves either strongly despising the way of the other, or yearning to be like them…

We all want to be whole and who we truly are – and so our heart will keep calling to us in a myriad of ways, until we listen and take note…. Whenever there is a strong feeling then it is an arrow to an inner hurt within us to be healed and loved –  or an aspect of ourselves which needs reclaiming and loving…

Anadi and I have both said that if we did ever own a base again, we would need to have to have two – next door to each other – so that Anadi could have white empty Zen space, and I could live in an an explosion in a paint factory!

The key is that we celebrate the differences in one another, and recognise that different situations, places, countries, climates and people can all reflect and uncover unclaimed parts of ourselves to be loved and embraced…

If we find ourselves animatedly talking about our love of art – say – with one friend, and yet in other situations this energy isn’t accessed, then rather than deem the other place ‘not enough’, it is worth investigating what aspects are accessed in the other space and enquire why our energy resonates there… Is it something we recognise we desire to clear or to expand and embrace within us…?

We are such colourful multifaceted beings that a position of wonder and curiosity at how we are in different contexts, and in different relationships allows us to reclaim ourselves and love ourselves in our entirety, as well as keeping open to getting to know ourselves and one another more and more deeply without projection, fear or judgement…

True love is patient and kind…

A healthy self concept; love and acceptance….

The view from my window changes almost daily at the moment… From a seascape in Dorset, to the fields of Provence – to a Sunday run on the South downs as if I had never left – and now I am looking out over the north terminal at Gatwick airport…

Changing vistas, blue skies to grey; sun to rain, green grass to concrete buildings, cars, trains and planes…

The complexity and variety of life on this planet, flashing around me as I journey within; deeper and deeper to a place where I now find that as I bounce around the planet I need no adjustment.

In the beginning, I could feel wrenched away from a place and needed time to get used to the new… Now I find I hit the ground – both literally and metaphorically – running, and the only thing that is really noticeable is the stretchy feeling of time…

A week ago Anadi and I were in Provence… It could be 6 months ago – But by the same token when I meet up with an old friend after a few months, it feels like we had a coffee together only last week….

I love the nomadic life, the planet my home… My belongings on my back and off I go. Anadi is on a techy software course in Cheltenham, so for a few nights we are a two home family!

I woke up in my new home today… Yesterday I stepped out onto Eastbourne seafront to run ten miles on the glorious south downs, today I made my way through the Hilton Hotel at Gatwick to the gym there, available 24 hours…

And this is where I notice my energy has changed significantly… Because nowadays, I always feel good running… This has changed as I have changed. Feeling leaden when running was a normal occurrence, in the past… Something to be endured until I felt light again… I would particularly notice this feeling when travelling or when training after lost sleep – or a change in weather or environment… But now I always feel fluid and fluent.

I ran 10k today on the treadmill…  I warmed up for a mile, ran a mile faster, ran 1/2 a mile at 10 minute pace and repeated 3 times and then cooled down… It was fun, easy and flowing. As I ran I recognised that the part within me that used to try to do more than I could has left… It simply doesn’t exist anymore.

Before I started to run barefoot, I had had a knowing deep down that I needed to start my running all over again… Go back to basics and start at the very beginning; but a thread hung on to what I knew and to the out dated patterns – and I didn’t do it… Until I shed my shoes…

And so the session was comfortable because I didn’t try to run at 7 min miles; I ran where I can feel my natural pace is at the moment…

Of course running this way brings a feeling of possibility, joy and expansion… It felt easy, so I feel I can do more… I am hungry to train again… I feel good about the experience… Win win…

When the over push dynamic is still alive, then the part that is used to struggling, and making things hard, is often trying to be somewhere its not ready to be yet… This attitude means that the whole experience can have a lower vibration energy, too hard, at our limit, can’t do any more, a feeling of dread at doing it again…

Feeling bad about the experience – lose lose …

The key is to have a healthy self concept now; one that is not dependent on our performance in any arena. This way we can stay in the moment, witnessing ourselves clearly without an inflated or negative self concept; but simply one of awareness and self knowledge…  From this place we are open to guidance support because we do not receive it from a place of ‘not good enough’, but from a position of  ‘I wonder what I can do?’

Thinking that anything outside us can make us feel good about ourselves is a chimera… Accepting ourselves and doing things from this place of self love makes for happiness and health and ongoing full involvement in our lives.

Happiness is always to be found inside us, it is an fruitless and endless search if we persist in looking outside, and this orientation can trap us in a feeling of urgency and desperation as we keep seeking…

When all the time we need only look within….

Synchronicity…

Last night we were honoured to be guests at the ‘gin off’, because we don’t make gin…! This is an annual ‘event’ where my old friends  – who I have run many many miles with on the South downs – make sloe gin from the sloe berries that grow wild on the South downs…

In September they gather for an evening of eating drinking and socialising, and sloe gin tasting and ‘judging’…  Anadi and I joined in with that bit and enjoyed the delicious food and the fun of catching up with our friends…

We then left them to the serious business of the gin tasting competition…

Today the two of us rose early and ran to the sea front, where we were greeted in spectacular fashion by the dawn – we bathed in the early sun streaking and splashing its red energy across the sky… As we ran along we witnessed the light circling and spiralling inward and around until there was just an ball of yellow orange light hanging in the sky above the sea… The chilly breeze soon softened as the warmth rose over the land we ran on – the rough stone sea front, the springy grass…

On the top of the downs we heard a shout ‘have you forgotten your shoes…?’

And there speeding along on their bikes were Jim and Gordy who we had seen last night at the ‘gin off’… Of all the ‘bike riders’ who there last night, these two were the only two to make it out this morning – to clear their heads and to celebrate a triumphant win, and podium places from the ‘gin off’ last night!
Gordy had won the outright pure gin; and Jim had two third places, one for the blend category…

How wonderful, the timing… The exact spot where we all met… We couldn’t have planned it and as always I wondered in the energetic resonance, the magnetic power of energy…The synchronicity… How we will meet who we meet; if we were to see ourselves in energy or in colour we would see more clearly where the resonance is; how the patterns and frequency is moving, bouncing and merging –  and how it is all unfolding….

It can give us an opportunity to reflect more deeply and to notice our souls path unfolding… For, however confusing it my seem, in this life, this journey – there is a rhythm and a resonance, patterns are playing out and it is all part of the dance of the universe…

The more we let go, the more we can enjoy the ride…

Some people thoroughly enjoy being on a big dipper, a roller coaster… Others are terrified…

The only certain thing about being here is that nothing is certain – at a ‘mental’ level – and yet when we surrender and let go, when we embrace the roller coaster it is possible to reach the place within where everything is still, and then we are at ease and there is a certainty in trusting…

Night follows day, and day follows night. For all the despair in the world, there is an equal amount of joy.

If we stretch our arms out to the side and we deem one finger to be negativity and one to be positivity; when we look to one finger then we can’t see the other… And so it is…

If we think the world is a dark place and we are looking there then that is what we see; if we think all is love and light and we are looking that way then that is what we see.

But when we know that both are true; in the same way that night exists and so does day… But that there is a place beyond this. A place beyond opinion agenda light and dark; a place of pure silence; then we stop the see saw of looking this way and that, swinging between dark and light, joy and despair – and a radiant light space reveals itself; pure bliss…

We hugged the boys good bye and ran on; the sparkly day lending itself to a very clement run and then again, the energy swirled and whirled in magical patterns across the sky as we ran down the hill, because coming up the hill towards us was Carol – Jim’s wife – who we have never seen out running before..

synchronicity, serendipity… Energy communicating, connecting, drawing together, resonating reverberating all across the land…

Trusting the way…

We have had such a wonderful day… My team – Anadi, Tim and Poppy the dog – completed walk 15 of the Sussex Hospices Trail…

The whole of the 200 mile trail, which circumperambulates the 12 hospices in Sussex, was walked today – or run as well in our case –  by 26 teams… Each team was made up of  2 – 8 people…

Leaving Richmond at 6.30 am to get to the start, proved to be our first challenge… I took two wrong turnings en route to find our car… Fortunately Anadi remembered where it was!

We enjoyed empty roads and vistas of Kent and Sussex beauty, appearing to part and spread out either side just for us, as we sped along.

At 8.30 on the dot we were at Burwash bus stop where we’d arranged to meet Tim… Only to find we were two miles apart… Anadi and I were in the wrong bus stop…!

We zoomed into Etchingham railway station at 2 minutes to 9 for our 9 am off to be greeted warmly and enthusiastically by our Friends of Sussex Hospices team members; Felicity, Chantal, Trish and Clive… We all chatted and laughed so much that in the end we didn’t leave until nearly 9.30….

And then we were off…

The famous three and a Poppy dog, larking about on the Sussex trail… The day was sunny and bright, warm sun, blue skies… Sussex glowing, holding us in her verdant lush arms, fields full of sheep, horses, wet green grass , a delight for our feet… But I was also very glad of my Skinners socks for the ouchie stones, the thistles and and the thorns….

The whole morning was playtime – but also realtime…We leapt on a big wooden log to imitate gymnasts on a beam; jumped over gates and streams… ( the boys!) The space also leant itself to talking, sharing, playing together, being real together…

Poppy ran around so totally in the here and now; trusting that where she was that very moment was exactly where she was meant to be, no question… She embraced it, she lived each moment, that was all there was to do…

That is all there ever is to do…

What is going to happen hasn’t happened, even though it has. So both positions can remind us to keep where we are.
We can deal with it; whatever is ahead when we stay where we are, we will discover that we are living our lives out and that we have all the resources within us for whatever is required…

Sometimes we might have to uncover and discover new skills and inner strengths, but everything is within us and we have all that we need in any moment… The key is to trust this when as human beings in the vulnerability of living this life, we forget, we tense up and try to manage a future that doesn’t exist…

Three friends and a little Poppy dog, out in the countryside together…

Being together, running together, laughing together…

Trusting the way…

Paso a paso…

A shiny September morn greeted me when I drew back the curtains and prepared to say ‘Hello’ live to my friends on Facebook…

I am loving ‘connecting in’ and sharing the events of another week… A week that brings me nearer to the day I set off from Suances on the north coast of Spain to run all the way to Almuñecar on the South coast…

The autumn equinox is heralding the six month count down… I love the rhythms and rhymes of life and this feels to be one unfolding as if it were already written; it is written…

I was remembering today how the first visit to Almuñecar was ‘by mistake’ – there is no such thing of course; what we perceive as a mistake is all part of the unfolding of our energetic ‘map’ and the more we watch, notice, listen, observe… The more we can ‘work things out’, rather than live our life by default, unconsciously…

‘Mistakes’ are the way we reflect, understand, clear our energy field and find our way to the centre of our being…

Anadi and I ‘thought’ that we were trying to get to ‘Salobrena’, but somehow we missed it and then couldn’t find our way back… And so we ended up in Almuñecar… Where of course we were always going…

After my broadcast, I set off up the hill to run… The light was sparkling across Richmond park, beaming lasers of light on the drops of dew; a gentle stag stood near me when I stopped to record my vlog – when I turned around after chatting to my friends a bit, the stag was closer than before. He felt close enough to connect with, to get a sense of, to know… I loved the stag so much. He was so perfect in his stag energy, his truthful expression. He was himself.

We are all perfect in our truthful expression…

We are all the sparkling September morn and the quiet bold stag. We are all one.

Anadi and I went to breakfast in a gorgeous Persian cafe that we discovered yesterday… I had passed it at the end of my 10 mile run – I had seen a board outside announcing that they had an award for great coffee… I was instantly won over…

But this place is so much more than its coffee; which is indeed award winning! The ambience is delightful, the energy inclusive and yet spacious and private; the staff so kind and friendly and the food amazing!
We are regulars… In two days we have been here, we now feel a part of the scene… The planet our home!

Later…

I met my friend Ange for lunch… Ange has pledged to double all monies made in my barefoot run across Spain! We are going to make a special vlog together soon…

But today we met just to chat and relax together; we met in the Petersham nurseries which is a delightful place. We ate surrounded by beautiful plants and flowers and a wedding part wandered by us, a bride and groom meandering about on the muddy ground, around the rustic beauty and lusciousness…

Layers of life all being lived out together. different events in the same space… Life unfolding in each step.

Ange wore some barefoot jewellery made by my friend Wends… She put it on her hand… ‘slowly slowly’ she laughed

‘Step by step…’

This is the way we will arrive where we are; ‘paso a paso’; step by step we will arrive in the next step and in that step we can rest… Assured that the next step will take us to the next one, and in each moment our future is revealed…

Step by step….

 

Time travel…

Journeying back in time, I drove down the road I used to drive up – much too fast as an 18 year old! – every day for work… And the road I used to pad down in my green flash gym shoes, having got off the bus to run the last bit of the journey home from school…

I met Athena Jane who had driven from Laughton, and we sat chatting for a short while in the Fox and pelican – the local pub – which is still the same but different… They now sell delicious coffee with white chocolate and cranberry flapjacks and choices such as a vegetarian platter with tapenade and hummus, feta and lots of deliciousness… All more resonant of being here now; food like that wasn’t served in the 70’s… ? And then we drove the extra mile, further down the road, past the playing field where as a 6 year old I raced up and down with my friend Charlotte, trying to keep warm on the edge of the rugby field, while my brother Stuart plated a game…

And then into a room full of warmth vibrancy, colour, laughter energy… Very much now… I had travelled down the road back in time and amazingly it had brought me absolutely right to the very present moment…

Everything is now; the 12 year old me is still running down that road; free as a bird, training my body and my spirit for a life of running… The creative energy is still alive and pulsing through the body that has been on the planet earth for nearly half a century more…

Jane and I walked into the energy of Tipple Art, which is the creative expression of my oldest friend Wends with her business partner Linda. the evening is one filled with joy, support, creative expression, fun and friendship – relaxation… We were given a theme of flowers to give us inspiration if we wanted, and delicious food – platters of cheese and biscuits, figs and grapes, quiche lorraine olives and salads and a glass of wine if we wanted…

Right in the centre of the room stood Nick! I was so delighted to see him… We used to run around together 40 years ago… As Nick said ‘in the literal sense’ not the figurative,… He was an awesome runner, still is at 60 years old… But back in the day he ran 48 minutes for 10 miles and the runners of you will know what that means… I have always loved Nick, he is a very real person, true in his heart and soul… A special man, and every so often our paths cross again…

This time I manoeuvred our meeting, when I realised I could make it to Wends and Linda’s event and I ‘encouraged’ Nick to come…

We sat next to one another and talked a lot and enjoyed being in one another’s company in a completely different context… I realise now, that all our previous conversations have been on the run

last night we sat side by side painting…

And neither of us painted flowers as you would expect flowers to look… But they were our expression of ‘flowers’… The space, the energy, Wends and Linda’s encouragement helped us all join together in our creative energy; it was such fun…

I haven’t painted since I was 20 and then i made murals all over the walls of the gym at Huntington House, the place I had visited and met the daughter of my old friend… The gym is gone now… Much changed at the end of my time there, including my creative expression through pain…

Last night I revisited it and enjoyed the process hugely… The interesting thing for me was that my artistic style resembled the style that was mine when I did my o level art… It simply flowed from me in the same  vein… Once again lending emphasis to the observation of our unique expression; we are all different unique beings… We all have a different energetic make up, different colours and sounds and frequency within us and this will of course emerge differently in whatever endeavour we do…

And it must be celebrated, honoured….

I was also delighted to meet friends of Wendy who I have heard so much about and to see my fabulous godson Alfie and Tony, Wendy’s husband, who had come straight from an award ceremony for his 15 years of coaching hockey,,,

He was being honoured fro his creative expression in the form of developing the young people which as he says in my vlog he loves to do…

The secret is to not question our energy, to watch and notice it –  and as always clear the tension and stay right in the centre point; the stillness from whence it can flow purely and simply and clearly out into the world for us all to celebrate… Connect with and join together and make the most expansive piece of art that is life across the universe

Together….