Elixir of love and life….

We left Richmond on Saturday evening with lots of time to spare…

Four years ago we had tickets for this same show ‘Elixir’ written by my old friend Christy Hawkins… It had a run then, in Camden… Anadi and I were still living in Eastbourne, and so we left hours to get there… But, we got stuck in traffic in the Dartford tunnel for literally hours, and more hours it turned out than we had allowed…! The time slipped away and we came to a point where we knew we had to give up…

While we were in Morocco I has seen the show was having another run – its ninth now – and that we would be back to the UK, in time for the last night…

The journey there was a delight in itself… I drove as Anadi is better at navigating than me…! And we set off on what turned into a delightful tour, before we even got to see the show…

What a magical fairy town, London town is!

We zoomed past The Natural History museum, and soon I saw the impressive building of Harrods, heralding its presence with the flags flying from its walls; round Marble Arch and alongside Hyde Park we motored – the roads clear – a perfect way to see the sights… We reached Buckingham Palace, and made our way down The Mall…

Suddenly I was running the marathon again, remembering that final stretch… Up to the palace, round the bend and down The Mall!

‘It’s funny to think I will be running this again’, I said to Anadi… ‘But in my bare feet…’

Like ‘El plan’ these words came out of my mouth, and so…  ‘It is written’.

I don’t know when…  But given  ‘El plan‘ – to run Barefoot Across Spain in my bare feet in the spring of 2018 –  is going to make me very fit, maybe the year after next – the one I turn 60 in… But my feet will decide, so no need to concern myself!

Along the Embankment we drove, and soon we were at the half way point in the London marathon… Tower bridge, and we continued, making our way to the docklands, still on the marathon route, when we arrived at ‘The Space’ in West Ferry road… A wonderful historical building which survived the blitz, and is steeped in history, and the energy of our ancestors…

Christy values the importance of honouring the spirits of those who have trodden on this land before us, the energy from whence we came – and continue to investigate together… To delve into the mystery, magic and wizardry of life; to find the alchemy within us all…

The ability to transmute base metal into gold… As Christy and I were exploring after the show…

Christy made reference to the quote… ‘As above; so below, as within, so without; as the universe , so the soul’, which refers to reminding the ‘magic practitioner’ of the importance of balancing the physical and spiritual, or else the magic deeds can come from an intent for wrongdoing…

We are all capable of alchemy, and we are all capable of our ‘magic’ coming with an intent for wrong doing, which is them sorcery… This can be unintentional and in the ‘name of love’; but when we seek to truly connect to the still point, then our actions will come from this silence – and can be nothing but pure…

And as Christy said, in the end the greatest alchemy is love; true love is beyond the duality of the pull for wrong and right doing…

Everything can be transmuted through the letting go of the investment and attachment to the yin and the yang in all things, in this universe of duality; part of the journey to transcending the pull of yin and yang, can occur in seeing the madness of ‘so called magic’ which relies simply on belief…

When we seek to connect to the silence within us, we become capable of clearing everything that arises and clouds this clarity… And then true magic can occur from truth, from love…

But in all the investigating and searching, the human foibles, lies, betrayals, wizardry madness and fun, everyone is seeking the elixir, of ‘youth’ within, joy, happiness  –  which the plot of Christy’s play is based on…

But true youth, is love everlasting where there is nothing, only love…

Christy has just got married to Issy who we met on Saturday… She is very beautiful on every level, and came over to us after the show having watched a vlog so that she would know me…

Christy and Issy went on a pilgrimage across the UK before they recently married, and his play is the the strongest it has ever been of its 9 productions which had its birth in Prague…

A testament to the alchemic qualities within, and to the greatest of these… Love… The show was fabulous, joyous, outrageous, funny, colourful, vibrant clever , totally engaging at all times…

But with deeper messages for us all if we wished – but if not – an escape into glorious fun, and a frolicking romp through magic, marriage and more…

The right time….

I have just returned from my Spanish lesson… A whole two hours speaking in Spanish with Maricarmen! The clock struck 1pm signalling the end of our time…

She then shared with me that she had seen a film about the racing driver Niki Lauda last night, and that it had made her think of me… This prompted me to tell her that I made a video yesterday, about the experience of training for and running my best ever marathon…

Having mentioned how she had connected something in the film with me, I thought she might like to see my vlog….

I told her how it had accessed emotion from within me… ‘And you hadn’t expected that?’ she enquired? ‘No, no, not at all…’ I responded… ‘It was the right time then…’ She said.

It was the right time…

Lauren Kelly is a barefoot runner in California… It was a video of hers, she had just completed a 16 mile run in bare feet, (!) that I watched when I first embarked upon my own barefoot journey…

We have become friends across the globe, and she said via my YouTube channel, that she was interested to hear about my experience of training for and running my best ever marathon…

And so I responded….

I didn’t anticipate the emotion rising in me as it did, and as Maricarmen said, this demonstrates how necessary the process was, and that it was the right time…

Over all my running years, I have been aware that part of fully embracing my running expression, has been to know that I was on a journey to be able to ‘let go’ of the ‘attachment to my running’… Or rather any attachment to some hoped for state, that running could never possibly give me…

To discover instead the Zen of running – how to truly be in the step – to be here, now…

This process has deepened over the years, and particularly in most recent months I have been aware of a profound ‘letting go’ occurring.

This has shown itself in my the barefoot running, as well as an inner knowing, and an ever increasing ability to trust the next step…

My running energy is where I have seen manifest where I am holding on everywhere…

I have always been ‘Running to learn’… I knew as a very young woman that the running path for me was been one where I came face to face with myself again and again and again…

Over the years running has been both my nemesis when I chased the ‘god of fast times and race results’, I hoped might bring the chimera of some sort of immortality; an illusion of ‘safety’ from the transience of this life…

But then it was also running that has been my salvation… Because, time and time again I was brought right back to the truth that there is nowhere to get to, and that there is no finish line; nowhere to hide…

I have been letting go all my life; and trusting that the letting go will reveal my true expression….

Running is and always has been a natural place for my soul to dance, to express, and the more I let go… The more it seems that rather than the running leave my life – instead the running step is more joyous, more free, more me…

And yesterday as the tears rose in me while I spoke, I was aware that this was all part of the process of letting go and setting my spirit free….

We can only resolve when we are ready to resolve.

It was the right time….