Our vulnerability and our strength

I woke at 6am as planned and crept out to a fresh summer morning, soft brown green hills rising around me…

The sun was already warming the day, but with less intensity than later on; a few people were about – running, walking, sitting on the grass….

I had a seen a lake last night, as Anadi and I wandered back from the sea, cool balmy, that we felt we could swim and swim in forever and not get cold…

I reached the lake and for a while, running around the edge of it was easy for my bare feet…. I reached the end and the path became sandy and a bit rocky; I crossed a bridge and started to run down the other side; but the ground became ‘ouchie’ and although it was fine to walk along; I have not yet mastered running on the very ‘ouchie’!

And so I walked along, alone, in a new land; a new path unfolding…

Each day holds the opportunity to take whatever path we desire; whatever path we want… There is infinite choice and it is only our conditioning and habitual energetic response to what we know, that keeps us on the same track… This track we travel along in life may well be the very one that is going to open up vistas of understanding, opportunity, possibility for us… But it may also be the one that leads us round and round in the same circle, sometimes without us even realising it.

Because the track we go along always reveals itself as we travel within… And so whatever path we tread today, if we reflect on how we chose it; then we will gain more insight into which way our steps are taking us…

Because the paradox of this life is that we can do the same thing and keep evolving, opening, blossoming as we go, and therefore changing, transforming, growing into our highest self…

Or we can keep changing our outer circumstances but repeat the patterns, go round in the same circle, with different people, in a different location, doing different things even, but without stopping in our journeying, reflecting, and seeing where our steps have been taking us… And the same stuck patterns can keep us locked in a prison.

With reflection, our path will reveal itself with its limitlessness, infinite possibilities and the more we trust ourselves, we will find it invites us on a never ending journey to freedom…

I rounded a corner and a man was there on the side of the path, taking a photo… I said good morning and walked past; but he immediately fell into step with me. We did not share a language and so after establishing that I was English and he was Turkish we walked along in silence.

I would have liked to run; but the ground felt too challenging and so we kept walking together… He then indicated he would like to take a photo of me… Having made reference to my bare feet, I thought he may be wanting to take a picture of my  barefootedness… He took the photo and then said ‘sexi’… I realised maybe it wasn’t just my feet! Especially when he patted my bum…

I wanted to get away, but couldn’t run… It was an interesting experience, to feel my vulnerability; to feel an urgency to get away, alone on a rocky path in my bare feet with a Turkish man…  I cleared the tension and relaxed… The path opened up and became smoother…  ‘I’m going to run now…’ and I was gone…

I ran to the beach and then all along the shoreline pebbly sandy, sometimes deeper, wet, sometimes I ran in the sea… I discovered sandy paths that lead from the beach and ran through the trees, and back to the beach…

I forgot all about my Turkish man… I ran, I walked, I paddled and two hours later returned to the beach where Anadi had been sitting in the sun, waiting for me for a morning swim…

I told him the story of my run, and when I shared the experience of the Turkish man, I shed a few tears that I hadn’t known were there… ‘I’m only crying because I’m telling you’ I said ‘I’m not upset and I wasn’t upset at the time…’

‘But I understand’ Anadi said…

Being in touch with our vulnerability can allow us to be truly strong; as we are living a human life, the strength comes through softness, not through aggression and tension…  In yoga, it is known that softness and flexibility need to be balanced with strength, because strength without softness is aggression; and softness without strength is weakness…

So the practice of yoga mirrors the practise of life, of us being in touch with our vulnerability and our strength; working to balance, balance, balance the ‘spirit level’ of the two and so experience absolute clarity.