Energy moving

As the days have passed since the unusual launch into my 60’s, I have been recovering by walking each day barefoot on the grass…

Four days ago my body was ready to run, and since then each day, Anadi and I have jogged barefoot around the fields and parkland here in north London…

Yesterday morning, I was feeling so much stronger – enjoying the wonderful freedom running barefoot brings me…

The feel of the slightly damp grass beneath my feet was exquisite – suddenly running towards us was a man, also without any shoes, his dog loping along beside him… ‘Barefoot people…’ he exclaimed delightededly as we crossed paths…

Anadi and I ran 11k with ease, and it seemed that it might not be long before I could start to properly train again…

However today was a different story…

I woke up at 2.30am this morning and my body started to vibrate from head to toe, energy was rushing all through it, down my legs and both arms… It felt very strange, and because of collapsing completely just two weeks ago, at first I had to concentrate with more focus on my breath – so as to clear any arising fear…

I woke Anadi and told him my body was doing something funny again, and that I didn’t much like it!

I asked him to put his hands on me to help calm it down, and I breathed into the strange electric sensations – which were if anything increasing in intensity…

‘What do you think is happening?’ – I asked him… ‘Its a shift in energy’, he said… ‘Likely to be a kundalini opening…’

‘Can we chant?’ I asked… And so we chanted over and over ‘nam myoho renge kyo’ – over and over – our voices vibrated together and my body continued to be electric… But any distress in me left completely…

‘I would like to know what is going on’… I said, as the sensations eventually started to calm down… ‘It’s a process of course…’ Anadi replied – ‘and it is likely the effect of you clearing so much, that your vibration is changing…’

‘So within, so without…’

As we clear energy from the past, heal wounds, change patterns, and free ourselves from any blocks within us – then of course the effects of these inner shifts will show themselves in the outer realms…

Often this occurs, simply by our lives changing – different events occurring, new people coming in, some people going… But of course, the inner shifts can also show as energy changing within the body, as it adjusts to the new vibration…

After about an hour, everything settled, and we went to sleep…

Today I woke up feeling well, but very fragile..

We had planned to run to Trent park and and run about there… But my body was too weak to run and so instead we journeyed in slower fashion, walking and talking – and swinging through the trees – enjoying the beautiful warm verdant May day…

If there was any part of me holding on to the misguided concept that there is any certainty in this life, then this is well and truly being erased 🙂

I am enjoying simply listening to the ideas and direction that are bubbling up from within, and allowing the process and the journey back to the running step and to where I am going in my life – to unfold…

Things of the spirit happen in their own time, there is no rush… We cannot force a flower to open, or the dawn to break and so we cannot rush our own evolution…

Caught in a storm

Today I was caught in a storm in the mountains…

I had set off for a long walk, deciding to give both my body and my voice a chance… Feet and spirit were more than willing, but as flesh is showing signs of weakness – I chose what seemed to be a wise option…

Seemed wise…!

Until I was along the mountain path and I saw the first spots of rain… ‘It did that yesterday’, I reasoned and then they disappeared… but these drops didn’t disappear; they started to get more and more huge and heavy – and then there was a flash, and almost immediately an enormous thunder clap…

I turned ‘on a sixpence’ at that point and my walk turned immediately into a run…

There is a shorter route down the side of the mountain to the back of my little white house, but once again I couldn’t remember the ‘lightening safety rules’!

That route is wooded with lots of trees and narrow paths… What to do? The lightening burst insistently across the sky and the thunder responded resoundingly soon afterwards – I was getting soaked…

It crossed my mind this wasn’t great for weak flesh… Before I reached the turning and the point where I would need to make my decision about which route to choose, a car pulled up beside me and hesitantly enquired if I needed a lift…. I leapt in gratefully.

The couple and their dog had been going to walk in the mountains, but the rain changed their plans; thankfully for me…

And now I am in my little white house, cosy and warm, the lightening just took the internet and so I more and more being thrown into my unplanned retreat… Which I have clearly planned at an unconscious level…

I am really enjoying it… I have discovered that an orientation that can help us observe ourselves and stay present is to watch the unfolding of our life in wonder… ‘What an interesting useful thing for my growth, my learning – I planned here’; we can think, if there is a challenge or a difficulty to unravel…

If we even for a moment investigate  from the position that our energy is created everything in each moment, then if we stay in each moment and stay connected to it, it follows that we can shift things around both in our past and our future, because they are all occurring now.

The most important shift is to move from thinking or feeling that ‘things happen to us’ – to truly connecting to our own energy, our own actions, our own responsibility… Now of course this doesn’t mean that things that happen are ‘our fault’ especially when we might have had terrible experiences, loss, abuse, abandonment and hurt…

But, after we have explored and gone right into the core of the wound, the anger, the shame, the grief, the hurt, the loss of self… It is only us who can heal the wound, it is only us who can clear away the feelings, shift our energy and so create new experiences with a clearer field…

Things are not our fault, we have been creating our own unique energy over lifetimes and lifetimes, and for many of these lifetimes with no awareness, this cannot therefore be our fault… We were simply living things out, responding, doing the best we could or the worst… Until the glimmer of awareness started to creep in…

The awareness that we can heal our life, that we can change things… Energy can’t be destroyed but it can be transmuted and transformed… And we and the whole universe are energy, which follows that we can – with practise – clear our energy fields and thereby create different experiences….

I have created for myself a silent mountain retreat where my body feels like it’s clearing something out… I have no idea what yet…

My processes are different these days, they seem to be very physical but I don’t have any particular story to them, unless it emerges from within – an insight – otherwise they just seem to clear another layer away and open me to something else…

And so I watch in wonder to see what the next barefoot step reveals… These feet of mine that seem now to have a life and mind all of their own.

It is like I am seeing my soul in motion through watching my feral feet….

 

‘Sixty seconds worth of distance run…’

I am back in my office six miles high again… It seems so long since I was here and yet it was Tuesday and today it is Thursday…

When I was on the treadmill this morning, I was thinking about the 40 hours I had just spent in the UK, treasuring how rich with experience each minute had felt – each one of them filled, as Rudyard Kipling suggests, with ‘sixty seconds worth of distance run…’

‘If you can fill the unforgiving minute
    With sixty seconds’ worth of distance run,
Yours is the Earth and everything that’s in it…’

And I felt a joyous lifting of my spirits… I could see the path expanding, widening before my eyes; I could see a limitless vista stretching like a huge verdant playground in front of me…

Over the years the voices that have said ‘No’, that have said ‘Not allowed’, that said ‘Why you, why should you have fun and enjoy life when other’s aren’t…?’

All these energies are gone, the voices have stopped shouting, they don’t even whisper now, and instead I understand the importance of each one of us clearing the sadness, the pain and blocks, the limiting energy that holds us in check, reins us back, crushes our spirit and silences our song… So that we can have fun and live fully…

So that we can feel the joyous truth of freedom, love, and acceptance of ourselves…

I have come to see the universe as a big huge amazing mass of moving energy, and if we look all around us, and we look closely we will see ourselves in the hall of mirrors; how we glint and shine back at everything and everyone… The biggest gift we can give ourselves and the world is to be free; to be our truest brightest selves, joyous delighted to be alive, shining our light so that others may light up too…

As Anadi and I left the theatre yesterday, we were reflecting how one of the key messages we heard in the show, was to be ourselves…

As Oscar Wilde said

“be yourself, everyone else is taken…’

To trust that this is what we must do and to accept one another…

But, we were also exploring how hard this seems to be on this planet… How it seems to be the hugest piece of work that we have all come to work through over lifetimes…

How the environment on planet earth doesn’t always lend itself to free expression…

How much we judge, perhaps because we are judging ourselves even if this is unconscious and so projected outwards…. Or perhaps our mind is made up, stuck, because this is what we have been taught; to think in a certain way … It is ignorance and a lack of understanding or ability to cross the bridge into the world of another, to really walk a mile or ten in their shoes; to feel what it is like to be wholly as them – with every emotion, feeling experience that the person has ever had within them; to feel it for this mile or ten…

It does often take really experiencing something unexpected or behaving in a way that is ‘not me’ to truly understand another….

But what huge shifts occur, when we do it as a practice anyway, always….

Later :

It was wonderful driving out of the airport and seeing Spain again… I remembered how much I love her and that I had missed her… But because I love England so much, I feel the same way with her…

So the answer?

To always fully enjoy being where I am…

 

 

Learning what we already know…

I raced back from running round and round the track to my Spanish lesson; arriving glowing and un showered… The joys of Skype that allow for us to be together with another in a way I wouldn’t be if I were in her classroom!

And then I was on fire in my lesson… ‘I don’t recognise you’ Maricarmen laughed as phrases and words were coming seemingly from nowhere… We decided not to question where they had come from…!

She said that I learn differently to other people… She says I am the opposite way round to most… In her experience people learn the verbs and vocabulary and like to get them perfect, but then find difficulty making use of them in conversation – putting them together in phrases and sentences… She says that I am different and speak phrases and sentences without always getting the verbs and vocab completely accurate – but she assures me that I am understandable and she says the correct ways will come… Are coming.

I said to her that I would enjoy being completely Spanish for a short while, to be able to hear myself and what I sounds like to a Spanish person… ‘Muy gracioso pienso’ ‘very funny I think’ – I said… “We like hearing people speaking in a funny way’ she laughed…

I have always done things back to front, so it was interesting for me to hear this, and testament to Maricarmen as a teacher that she has flowed with my way and taught me in the ‘back to front’ way that suits me… I think it is also described as counter intuitive…

We all learn differently and it is finding the way that suits us, and will help us to master any new practises we desire to learn… Of course there is now awareness that people learn differently and this has been addressed in teaching methods and training teachers… Gifted teachers recognise different learning ways and adapt how they teach to suit their students, who have come to them to learn what they already know…

All learning is in truth accessing from the absolute understanding that we know all there is to know, all is available to us, learning is simply clearing the pathways to allow the truth to emerge…

It is, therefore our responsibility ultimately to know ourselves… ‘Know thyself…’

I had enjoyed running around the track… I ran 5000 metres jogging the bends and striding down the straights… A nice way to lap the track… My feet are definitely noticing the upping of miles… They are slightly more sensitive, but I showed the bottom of them to Anadi and he said ‘You’ve just got to keep doing it, they will adjust…’

The rest of my body is flying, my body feels balanced and happy… It is eating up the miles, but I am going to flow with my feet and let them dictate and catch up… I watched a little boy running along on top of a very ouchie looking wall yesterday… I was inspired.

Whenever we feel to look, there is inspiration all around us… If our orientation is ‘I can do…’ – we will find those that already are – and our belief will be re affirmed… I am often inspired by children… By their relaxation, their movement, the capacity they have to walk on ouchie walls or do handstands cartwheels, bend and stretch… They are my re educators of how the body likes to move, be agile, strong and balanced…

They are my teachers…

If we know ourselves and embrace and love ourselves, then we will be willing to spend time understanding ourselves and unravelling any of the hurts from childhood… Perhaps someone didn’t have the time or energy to do so… We now can look after our own inner child, and learn how to support and nurture them.. We can discover how they respond and look after them, and find that we will then truly grow into the happy integrated adult who can jump and leap and cartwheel alongside the inner child….

I was delighted yesterday in my barefoot fitness class to discover that my right big toe was a bit unresponsive… Once we know something we can address it and unravel it. My toe responded very fast to the exercise and re engaged; but sometimes it takes longer… The key is to gently gently work at whatever it is we wish to master or learn…

Giving ourselves the patience and understanding, the time and energy we wanted and perhaps didn’t always receive as a child… Now we can do it for ourselves, and find that by giving ourselves permission to learn in the way that works for us, with kindness, patience and calm…

Anything is possible

Journeying back in time….

We left a sunny shiny Provence, the light streaking across the rows of grapevines, and open expanse of green brown fields; sky blue, the clouds in sight – fluffy white…

As we hugged Stuart and Sue goodbye, we said ‘We’ll see you somewhere… Maybe Edinburgh next’ – (where they live in the UK) – ‘or perhaps Spain’ I ventured…

‘Oh yes…’ Sue said ‘We’re coming to Almuñecar for your birthday…’

I was delighted…!

On March 27th next year (2018) I will set off from Suances on the North Coast of Spain to run to Almuñecar on the South coast, planning to arrive on my birthday… I am running in my bare feet to raise money for the Friends of Sussex Hospices and staying in France has given me the opportunity for some great road running training…

Now we are flying through the air, 6 miles high… My feet are a little bit tender from a ten days of road running… But like everything it is ‘practicar practicar practicar….’

I have been asked by one of my YouTube fans/friends called Jay Hay to make a custom vlog on what the energy feels like in an aeroplane in bare feet…

I write and speak from my own experience, of being in a universe of energy and that we are all part of this energetic vibration.

It was Nikola Tesla – the scientist who worked closely with Thomas Eddison who said that if we wish to understand the universe we must think in terms of… ‘Energy vibration and frequency…’

I find being on a plane quite a still and silent place for me – in general people are quite contained and not projecting much of their energy outward onto others.. There are of course people who are afraid or angry, upset or ill, or engaging with the person next to them, but it remains that there is an air of respect and recognition as to the affect we are having on others…

It often isn’t until the plane lands and the seat belt sign go off, that all the interacting, mingling and projection of energy begins again with more emphasis…

Later…

I am sitting in the Fox and Pelican pub in Grayshott, a village four miles from the village of Headley where I grew up.

I am here to go to my friend Wendy’s ‘Tipple Art’… We landed at Gatwick and Anadi went to the office and I drove here.

I have just met Athena Jane, but I was an hour early, and my sat nav brought me to the front door of Huntington house where I worked 40 years ago… I drove down memory lane and enjoyed an amazing hour with the daughter of my great friend Mal who I met aged 15 when she was 25… She had a huge and positive influence in my life.

Without the internet back then, our contact drifted when I moved to Bath in 1982 …

But today I met her beautiful daughter… I had heard many years ago that she was in the world, but I had never met her…

It was a very enriching experience to meet Sarah, to walk around the building, feel its energy, creativity and expansion… A building so dear to me, that I saw in a derelict state and was part of a team to breathe life into its walls forty years ago…

But most joyous was to be with Sarah, to experience her, to be around her lovely energy – to know she was born of Mal, who meant so much to me… And to hear her describe her mother – my great friend all those years ago – in such true, loving and glowing terms…

Freedom…

Today as I was running on one of my traditional loops here from my brother’s home, barefoot now of course – when a man in a lorry stopped…

I thought he was going to ask the way but I was wrong – he was checking I was okay… The weather was a bit cold and perhaps it looks slightly more odd in worse conditions running down a road without any shoes on, than when the sun is shining…

I was able to communicate with lots of smiling and thumbs ups that I was okay… It is wonderful how essentially for really important things, or when we really want to communicate we can…

We can gesture to one another; sign and smile – look unhappy or happy – we can ‘say’ how we are feeling, and what we want…

Of course this is going on coupled with conversation anyway… Body language, facial expressions, gestures are all an integral part of how we are connecting with one another. It is important to be aware of what another is receiving through our gestures and our facial expression… As well of course as our tone, which makes a huge difference to the energy of what we are saying..

But it is signs gestures and facial expressions we are exploring here… Culturally there are differences, but by checking and watching and staying very connected and present to ourselves and to the other we can connect and communicate without a word being spoken…

A look of disapproval or a smile can give a message to another, but it may not be what we think it is… So once again we come to the place of being prepared to slow everything down; to notice, to check to ask, to inquire…

But deeper than this is to clear our own energy field; because the most profound way we communicate with one another is through our energy and this is where the truthful communication springs from… It isn’t uncommon for the words not to match the inner state… A place of peace both for the person communicating, and for the one receiving is when the words we utter match our inner state…

This way dialogue and conversation slows down… When we are not ‘reacting’ to another, we are able to stay present, still, silent inside and there is all the time in the world to check that what we are communicating is being received as we intended – and that we are not taking offence or closing down in any way to the other…

Of course this doesn’t mean that we accept abuse, but if we are not ‘reacting’ to it, it becomes far easier to simply move away from it…

When we react we are immediately caught in a cycle…

Freedom comes when we feel no inner tightening, any upset; when we don’t react at all… We don’t react to gestures, to facial expressions, to tone of voice, to the words spoken…

All these things can act as triggers, intentionally or unintentionally communicated by another. When we are free from reactivity we never cut of the lines of communication; firstly to ourselves, because when we react we cut off love to ourselves and it follows , the other…

When we are working to heal the wounds, to clear the pain it is important to notice everything… Even if the trigger happens in our car, or in a shop – smaller things as well as the bigger issues; in global events and in our personal relationships…

This is not to do with not caring, it is recognising that the place beyond opinion or agenda is a far more effective and healthy place to share our energy, to communicate from, to live from…

And certainly we must have no agenda of trying to ‘get anywhere…’ But to simply keep noticing and pressing the pause button to reflect on our own lesson; our own healing, our own clearing…

And gradually we will be in situations that previously upset us, and there will only be silence within, and we are free…

I have found that more inner silence within frees me to keep journeying, no holding back… The very thing I was afraid of in being more visible in the world, in allowing my voice to be heard, was of being somehow told I was ‘wrong’… And now I feel no fear…

As I rounded another bend on my run, an old lady was walking along leaning on a stick…

‘Courage’, she called…

We are the people…

Yesterday Anadi and I set off early to run; the tide was low and the beach was empty. We had planned a long run and so to deal with the wind, we did two ‘out and backs’! Four miles out, four back into the head wind; three more out finishing with three into the wind…

I felt so strong, like I  could run for ever… I was wondering how my body would feel, as ever since my stomach upset, ten days ago, my tummy has been rather active! But I felt very good, and I can feel the strength growing in me as I finished week seven on fifty miles; ready for more…

Because of the wind we were mainly silent… It whipped all around, carrying any words we might utter tumbling off into the sand dunes; over the waves; up with the gulls who swooped and glided all around… We ran watching the sand swirl, feeling it sting our feet.

This beach has been wonderful to run on… We leave here tomorrow and I have loved very step; it has been so easy to build my fitness to another level on its welcoming shores – and I am inspired by the agility of the Moroccan men here; there is something so free and athletic about their strength and how they move which I aspire too…

Later…

We were wandering after dinner in the mayhem of the Medina in August – we are told it is the most busy time of the year, due to the weather being fresh here, so the Moroccan people come in their droves, to escape the oppressive heat of the Cities…

Suddenly I was stopped by the same man who chatted to me in the street while I was making my vlog… He told me that he had a big house in Marrakech because his parents were ‘poof’ – and he did a hand movement into the air, and then placed his hands together, his head on one side, in the action of sleeping… ‘You understand?’ I said I understood… ‘Is this your husband?’ – He gestured then to Anadi standing right beside me.. On finding Anadi was indeed my husband, he offered a rather reluctant invitation to him to also visit his big house…!

I am always interested when the same people appear; how our energies swirl and twirl around in this dance of life… I like to watch the movement of people in terms of patterns and colour and energy, moving joining blending; bouncing off, mixing, meeting reviling, rejoicing…

The whole universe is one giant ball of pulsating energy which we are all a part of – contributing to, changing the quality of in every moment… Enhancing, reducing – brightening, darkening – pulling upwards, spiralling downwards…

It is all to do with us; what quality do we bring to each moment…?

I read that astrologically the solar eclipse is about the feminine energy rising up and changing the repressive ways of patriarchy… It is about the power of the people; coming from the heart of the group, and of course the heart of the individual.

The power of the whole, is dependent on each individual and how they use their energy, their power.

Any big astrological shift opens a portal to the absolute truth that the changes are always from within. The heart and soul of the people is dependent on our heart; the energy of the people is dependent on our energy.

Pointing fingers at others, does not clear a thing… Sometimes it only means we join in the energy of anger, or abuse, or disempowering ways that mean we allow our energy to drain away…

This is what MysticMamma says about this Solar eclipse and the new moon in Leo…

Divine Feminine energy comes through the veil to awaken humanity to its true power in love.

A new way is calling as the outmoded, short-sighted, repressive ways of the Patriarchy are no longer tolerable or permissible. We the people awaken and new leaders step forth.

Together we rise in consciousness for an inclusive humanity. 

Reflecting on these words, it is important we recognise that ‘we the people’ refers to each one of us… Leadership as a new way of being, one based in love is within us all… It is not out there; and ‘the people’ refers to the collective individual!

The inner changes happen from within the heart – and through being committed to staying aware of the energy within us… It is who we are, and how we have effect in the world, and how we affect the quality of the energy around us…

We are our energetic make up…

Doing our own thing together…

I did a sort of peep show vlog today; and I noticed that rather than not wanting to be on video, everyone was keen to be in the frame… I am so aware not to capture people on film who don’t want to be captured that I recognise now I have been missing giving people the chance to join me…

I was making an assumption… And assumptions trap us; of course they also free us to live… We assume the stairs will hold our weight, the sun will rise, another day begins, the car will start!
But really and truly nothing is certain… So when we assume, if we assume from the position that nothing is certain we will develop a keener awareness of the magical and the mysterious…

‘Making something up’ without testing it out can limit us…  We might think we are being ‘kind’/ ‘polite’ – but once again this is to do with us, not them.

The most powerful position to take as we live each moment is that of ‘not knowing’. This way we do not project ourselves onto others, and we then do not unintentionally or intentionally manipulate or manoeuvre people with our own agendas or ideals or values… That might be nothing to do with the other at all!

All the people who were in the little alleyway as I left the Riad to run, were more than happy to be in my film – in fact they requested it – and it has opened a whole new avenue to me as to who might join me in my vlogs…

It is always important that when we think something, or know something, or even intuit something – that we test it out… It is only a hypothesis and we have only ‘made it up’ until that moment.

It can end up limiting our own lives – as well as the space between us in relating with others – if we believe our made up things without exploration… They simply become projections to do with us and our own paradigm…

Now it might be that we ‘make up’ and intuit extremely accurately – and this gets born out again and again; but unless we are invited to say what we intuit or see, then it can take away the power of another and becomes dark energy rather than the light it is our intention to shed.

And so in every moment of every day we must check in with ourselves and our assumptions our projections and even our intuitions and seeing abilities. As Ros, my therapist and supervisor would say to me ‘what do you make up…?’ And we would explore that it was very likely an accurate insight; but even if this is so, it doesn’t give us the right to interfere with the path of another unless invited to give the insight…

We do not know the path another treads, and it might be important that they live out a pattern, a way of being and that it is not the time for our observations… If we are seeking to change another, or even point out where they might change, when this hasn’t been invited, then we must look at where the three fingers of the point are pointing back at us…

It is always to do with us…

The only place of transformation and change that we must be concerned with is with ourselves; if anyone seeks our counsel then so be it; this is still to do with us and must have no agenda or self agrandisement within its energy…

I used to have a Buddhist text on my wall – when I had a wall 🙂  – which essentially said this…

If we are to work in the lives of others then it is always knowing that our job is to feed and water the plant, which way it grows is up to it; if ‘the plant’ takes a lifetime, a hundred lifetimes or a thousand lifetimes to grow and blossom, it doesn’t matter – if we practise this way our practise will always be at peace…

If we are true to ourselves and let go of all expectation of others then we are free…

I ran 9 miles on the beach today, up and down, because the wind has whipped up again and so to break up the bits of running into a head wind, I ran out for 4k and back again and then out for 3k and back again… It felt like a great big gathering… The windsurfers and kite surfers in their element, the galloping horse with their tails flying and the rocks sparking off their shoes as they ran over the pebbly stretches; the same people on the beach each day, running exercising inspiring – joining together in the dance of life…

All of us doing our own thing together.


 

Connection and communication…

As I walk in my bare feet and communicate across the globe through our incredible technology, I am reminded that the art of communication miles apart was a natural thing to mankind.

The aborigines are known to use telepathy as a normal way of speaking, and it is simply an unused part of ourselves…

‘If we don’t use it we lose it’, is true of so many things… Whether that is our bodies and their abilities to do things, like running jumping, handstands, even squatting up and down…

If we stop doing things then the ability can disappear.

The same with a foreign language, it is important to practice or the hard learned words will disappear again from our memory…

Technology aids our ability to be with one another in real time across thousands of miles and different time zones; but technology is channeled energy and this universe if an energetic vibrating expanse, where we are all part of the whole, and so within every one of us, there is everything there is to know and be.

Of course we are all experiencing different energetic aspects of the whole, giving us the illusion of separation; but the more we let go and surrender any sense of ‘self importance’, and instead allow ourselves to be available for what is occurring… We can experience, appreciate and celebrate the diversity in another person, another land, another culture and connect to the people and experiences through the senses and energy, rather than the limits of the mind.

When sensing and intuition lead us, then we can use the logical mind to its best ability – to put things into action, create, make, manifest from the limitlessness of the energy we are all a part of…

And so although we use technology to access our voices, see our faces; the relating is still more about an exchange of energy than anything else.

If at the core of us we stay connected to our heart and its messages, and the intuition in our body, we will find that we can receive messages from others just as those more sensitive to the skill or practiced at it do…

Because when we receive a text message, or an email or a normal letter in the post, it is possible to feel the different energy from each person; each has its own quality.

I notice this in particular on my YouTube channel, as I am communicating on the messages page with some of those who are following me… Many of them, have different names to their actual one; and no photo and yet in the dialogue with each of them there is a different energy and I am able to feel and pick up something about them aside from what they write…

I am sure this is resonant for us all; and the more we listen to our own intuition, we will discover that at the core of all the wonders of our world now, is the connection to ourselves, to one another and to the earth where all the messages are coming from….

We had a delightful evening last night in the company of Tom and Alicia… They have been in Essaouria or two weeks painting and cleaning a school and now they are spending two days here in Riad Arambys until going to Marrakech…

Alicia is Spanish!

And so I was able to deepen the lesson I had in the morning with Maricarmen; and ensure that I don’t lose my Spanish by not using it enough!

Celebrating similarity, difference and change…

Anadi and I arrived here in Ilfracombe on Monday evening, we were met by our host who wasn’t wearing shoes! ‘Barefoot’ I exclaimed as if I were greeting one of my tribe… ‘I’m always getting told off for it’ he laughed… ‘No no…’ I continued; ‘I’m a barefooter too…’ I didn’t realise until that moment that I had a ‘title’ or a way of defining myself… Like ‘I’m a runner’, or ‘I’m a writer’ or a ‘healer..’ Or, ‘I’m an anything at all…’ or even ‘I’m a man’ or maybe a woman…

Defining ourselves can instantly box us in, make us contained… Because definitions by their nature have a whole string of thoughts, ideas, descriptions, associations that go with them, which – even more beguilingly can be very accurate too.

Many years ago, I was working as a personal trainer… I drove a little black fiat panda – rather too fast – around Sussex! In the back I carried a rebounder, a step up box, dumbbells, bar bells, skipping rope and whatever else you can think of that might help me construct a training session for my clients…!

I was blond, slim and fit… I often wore a shiny pink of aqua shell suit – they were all the rage then… And ate muesli for breakfast… I read a funny spoof article at the time on PT’s… Of course I fitted the description completely, even down to the fiat panda!

And yet if you had lined us all up – the PT’s that fitted much of the description, we might share some characteristics that we would recognise in one another, but beyond this particular ‘energetic play out’ in our lives, of course there was more.

Different people resonate and vibrate with similar frequencies of course, which can lend itself to ‘grouping us together’ into ‘man group’, ‘female group’, ‘barefoot group’, ‘sporty group’ ‘theatrical group’…  But this is only useful as a way to discover more, uncover more, bounce of and investigate with the other similar energies, so that we might know ourselves more.

Because similarities and finding someone else feels the same, understands us, has had the same mountains to climb, ‘gets it’ can be very liberating and freeing to continue down the path of our own truth…

Each of us is unique…

But like everything there is a yin to this yang, where groups are trapped into being ‘teenagers’ or ‘hippies’ or ‘barefooters’ 🙂 and the connotations that can be associated can be limiting…

So… What to do?

Be absolutely aware in every moment of when the liberation of feeling recognised and part of something… The synergy and growth that can feel wonderful, turns to feeling trapped and stuck, limited by the title, or held in by the projections and expectations of others to ‘be a certain way’…

When the truth might be, that you want to change from being a man to being a woman, from running to writing, from marriage to being single, from wearing shoes to being barefoot and back again….

The key is to listen to your own truth… This way all aspects of you can be embraced; the recognition in another can be fun and it can be confusing also in seeing something we haven’t seen before, or don’t understand… The conversations from these episodes can be expansive and liberating; both when we see similarities in another and also when we see the differences…

When we recognise that nothing is static and we are only trying to make meaning of ‘energy’, which always has the possibility to transmute transform; shift and change and for something entirely new to appear…

Later on…

Jane joined us… Anadi and I had driven into town for some supper… I had sent Jane the post code, but by mistake I had put an R instead of an E – and of course her sat nav started to take her to Basingstoke! Luckily I had told her where we were… By the statue called Verity, so she found us and all was well…!

We had all planned some months ago to meet here to watch Josie compete in an ironman triathlon… Josie is one of the Zen runners and her ironman was cancelled… But we decided we would come along anyway as she lives nearby…

The funniest thing is that Josie is now in Sweden… But we are having a wonderful time here, celebrating our friendship with Josie and also the truth of flowing with what is; we know our paths will cross again and the ironman brought Anadi Jane and I here…

See the vlog for more… !